"Astoria"

I wonder what you would have looked like

Tow-headed

We made room in the office for your crib

And thought about pre-school

Sitting in the hospital

She was crying at the vet earlier when it happened

Our cat needed a heart scan

Balancing the insane motion

Surprising blood and pieces of a life

Red underwear in the bathroom and our tears

And I feel helpless

Hand-me-downs and birthdays hoped for

Smash cakes and smiling grandparents

Wishing you could have come this summer

But knowing it wasn’t time

Explosions across the sky when you left

Blue light lit up Astoria

Hopeful memories

Leaving spectacularly

Just like how you came

Making us wonder “What if?”